Omg i thought you a bitch but you’re actually really cool. I thought you were a total bitch because you don’t talk a lot. Just an absolute cunt. A horrible horrible rude bitch. The worst. I thought “wow this bitch is so quiet who does she think she is? She thinks she’s so much better than us. I literally hate her” We cool now tho
There’s something missing since 2019
I only ever want the simple and small things. A bowl of fruit. To exist comfortably. To be accepted. To be loved. To eat nice food. To laugh as much as I can.
i can’t do this anymore! i mean i can, and i will, obviously. but i can’t fucking do this anymore!
im afraid i am more like my dad than i had ever known myself to be. the lashouts, the insecurity, the possessiveness. the antisocialness. aching to push people away. and worst of all, the entitlement to be wanted, needed, and taken care of.
we have to be silly together it’s an imperative i can’t do this alone
I need to relax and also I need to get crazier
full of love but low on trust
passionate people need passionate people
I give up (for the tenth time this week and it’s only tuesday)

